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SHIT, NOW I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT LIFE

In a couple of weeks uni will be over with until the autumn and today I have come to the realisation I will be slowing down activity-wise and have more time to think. Uni has been so much fun and an outlet for my exploding creativity. It has also helped me so much. This year alone it has nursed me through an epilepsy diagnosis and a broken heart. Most of my fellow students are looking forward to the holidays - not me. I guess I can climb a few mountains in the lake district but what I prefer is work. I have Henry Rollins' work ethic. SOME ONE GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO. I know, I will make a film or two and write a book. Ahhh, that's better. :)

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by Anonymous, 23 June 2009

POETRY

eccentric fish book cover

Pavement Poem

Do not step here
my dreams have fallen
out of my pocket, and
are hard to find again.
Don’t grind them into the ground
Otherwise I will have to wait
for the rain to run into the cracks
to the feed the daisies
to push them back up again

Sleep Walk
Did you sleep well?
No, I made a few mistakes.
The truth keeps interupting.
I don’t know how to end the dream.
I forget to dot the tease
And cross the eyes.
Poor Dali,
Making movies on how I see the world
With dyslexic dogs
Providing the subtitles and the subtleties.
Can’t read the small print.

The truth keeps interupting.
I don’t know how to end the dream.
I can read the film
Of existence
It is transparent
Dreams are commercial breaks
Selling my soul back to me
But I want more:
33% extra soul
buy one soul, get one free
I want new and improved soul
With a fresher fragrance

So it is hard to sleep well
I am sleep-walking on the hot coals
Of the stars,
One day I will get to the end

And not wake up.

RUNNING OUT

Psychiartrist conference-
free pens!-
I took one-
before I went to talk to docs on-
what it is like to be mad-
The ink was temperamental-
wrote only half the words-
nobody knew what I wanted to say.
I scream in frustration – arrggghh-
but those are not my words-
just what you made me say-
Psychiatrist, read between the lines-
stop giving me things that do not work.

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by ben paley, 10 July 2008

NEW SONG ON MYSPACE

I have just written the music for my next song, there are no words yet, so that's why at the moment it is called, er, 'instrumental'. Check it out at www.myspace.com/sugarpsychosis

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by ben paley, 10 July 2008

The World is made out of Cardboard

cardboard bed

Sorry guys, it's been way too long since I last blogged properly here. It's just I have been so busy and I have been living in a cardboard box. No, I am not homeless. I have been a set designer for a super16mm film called 'HERON'. It is written and directed by my adopted son Gary. The main character Edgar Gregory lives in a room made out of cardboard, cardboard bed, desk, mug and computer. One night he meets a heron... That's all I am going to tell you, but basically it is an existential crisis made out of cardboard. Move over home make-over shows, let Dolly make you a bath made out of the best of tesco's rejected brown stuff!

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by ben paley, 10 July 2008

COME TO LADYFEST

ladyfest banner

Hello, I will be part of Ladyfest London's film festival, presenting films along the lines of mental health, on Saturday 10th May at Islington Arts Factory. Go to http://www.ladyfestlondon.co.uk/ for more info.

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by ben paley, 10 July 2008

MY FILM IN CANNES

Film Festival Poster

I had my documentary film about schizophrenia shown at Cannes this is year in one of the minor festivals www.cannesinavan.com
As part of that festival, 'Life as a Side Effect' will be shown at the The Movieum of London, where you can rub shoulders with Storm Troopers and Indiana Jones. How cool is that?

Posted by , 1 May 2008

Last modified by ben paley, 10 July 2008