I don't know how many people share this experience, but I am a bi-realitist. Having the intense, divergent mind psychosis brings but able to comprehend the world of consensual reality, albeit a bit strangely, and in an off the wall way.
But sometimes one overpowers the other: when the psychotic side does it, I am compelled to create art to exorcise; when the 'normal' side does it, I am compelled to create lists. I needed to create this piece of art, and now I feel haunted by one less ghost.
Is normality the real thing?
Is it full of artificial sweeteners, sentimental but not compassionate?Fucking people over, but a good ad campaign can tell you the opposite.Is the strean of consciousness chlorinated, santised for public use? Is the society we are living in aiming for soul zero?
I will be exhibiting at the Within Without You Exhibition, as part of the the Bath Fringe Festival. The exhibition was the brainchild of Brian Robert Gibson, whom I met at some Outsider In training, and with some other artists who are part of Outsider In www.outsidein.org.uk/, plus a few from further afield, this exhibiton and blog came about to explore what it is to be an outsider.
As Brian says himself, this event is 'a space to explore where we are placed and where we place ourselves within any given spectrum.'
The exhibition with be at: The Pet Store, 7 Upper Borough Walls, Bath, Avon BA1 1QR
25th May-10th June 2012 - 10am-6pm
Private View: Fri 25th May 6-9pm
The blog for the event, which showcases art and words from the outsider artists themselves, is at withinwithoutyou.info/
Here is an example of one of my poems from the blog:
You say my sun shines too bright,
but if you have had the dark clouds I’ve had,
you could give nothing less.
Yes, sometimes the sun blinds others.
But with it, I can just about see where I am going.
You can turn off the light if you want, you have the power.
You can give me back the dark room.
But once in there, you ask me to leave that too.
1000 watt or nothingness is me, I guess.
You can force the 50 watt on me, but it doesn’t fit the slot.
I have tried pushing it in; my soul is torn to prove it.
Until you change your light into one that fits,
one that shines and doesn’t laugh at dreams,
let me shine my way, until I can see where I am going,
and the sun can rest behind the trees.
Powerpoint is probably one of the most unsubversive mediums around, it is used 40,000 times a day to tell people what to do, I thought I would reverse the trend a tiny bit by creating a subversive powerpoint.
It all came about when I was part of the Sync Leadership www.syncleadership.com and coaching scheme. It really helped me find my focus regarding my arts practice. I was asked to do a presentation at a conference on my subversive career, and Sarah Pickthall, my coach, loved the idea of the powerpoint to accompany it, because she knew I would think it my moral duty to subvert such a dull medium, so here it is!
Sometimes we need a little reminder...
Today, I swore in a job interview and cried at a one legged pigeon because I have a bit of PMT at the moment.
I also produced this work of art. Or am I just playing a game? My bemused brother watched me create it. He offered the suggestion that the hammer and sickle is both a circle and a cross, so there is no clear winner. The crosses we bear and the noughts we become.
Maybe I should just take primose oil and stop asking questions and patronising one legged pigeons.