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Being alive - a creative act.

The GP said I probably have a fractured vertebra.

After getting an X-ray (result pending at time of writing) I did the following in this order:

  1. Had a lie down (because it hurt).
  2. Bought a portable DAB radio (in case I have to go into hospital).
  3. Went for a swim (to relieve the pressure of gravity and to exercise the bits that aren’t broken).

What’s this got to do with art?

Everything. My life is a work of art in itself, or so it seems to me right now. Being alive is my best work to date.

I'm an artist, damn it!

As I sit here and write this, my fingers dance over the keyboard.

As I sit here and write this, every breath is a celebratory song.

As I sit here and write this, I reflect on how much I would miss this if I could no longer do this (but there is Dragon!). So I will do as much of this as I can while I can.

Another time I had a fracture my mother put me in the sea, stood beside me with her hands under my torso and taught me the breast-stroke. I was five years old, a spindly twig, unable to walk; yet I could float and move.

Whatever goes on in my body, I will always swim.

Whatever goes on in my mind, I will always write.

Wherever my body and mind go, I will always be in the world.

Posted by Deborah Caulfield, 14 July 2014

Last modified by Colin Hambrook, 14 July 2014