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If you're looking for inspiration, you came to the wrong place.

I read this: Driving Inspiration: teams up disabled artists and Paralympians with disabled and non-disabled young people.

Then I wrote this in the comments box underneath the article:

I see a big problem with disabled people having to be inspirational in order to improve other people's attitudes towards them. Talk about being set up to fail.

Then I wrote this on Twitter:

#disabledpeople Arts funders expect our work to be #inspirational to improve other people's attaitudes towards us #setuptofail #fedup.

Then I wrote this blog.

Then I attached the picture opposite. It is most uninspirational.

It is a self portrait, a mirror reflection drawn quickly in black marker pen on acetate (I don't know why) in March 2011 when I was beginning to feel less suicidal and depressed than I had been for almost a year.

So I did this picture.

Occasionally I draw for no good reason other than it's what I tend to do, being a creative type who loves to doodle and scribble. Who loves pictures (who doesn't?).

I also go for weeks without drawing because I'm attending to important matters.

So this picture is a scribbly one. Wiggly, black lines zig-zag over the surface to form an impression of my face. I look rather sombre. My right cheek is a bit podgy (I don't know why). The left side of my mouth is pulled slightly downwards, as if I'd had a stroke (of genius perhaps). Above my right eye is a short, quite heavy, diagonal line.

On top of my head is a haystack. No, this is the wrong description. Haystacks are orderly and tidy.

I like this picture. It's interesting (to me).

That's all.

Posted by Deborah Caulfield, 22 March 2014

Last modified by Colin Hambrook, 12 September 2014